The Life Cake

May mga tao talagang sobra kung magmahal. Yung mga taong ginagawa talaga ang lahat para lang ipakita kung gaano kahalaga sa kanya ang kaniyang irog(naka, irog amp). Dumarating sa puntong iniisip niya na lamang ay puro siya at gumawa ng sariling mundo para sa kanilang 2. Isang mundo binuo "daw" ng pag-ibig at may nalalaman pang "promises" na hindi mawawala hanggang sila ay may pag-ibig.

Kaso may problema, biglang nawala ang kaniyang minamahal. Syempre naiwan siyang mag-isa sa maliit nilang mundo. PIlit niyang tinatawag ang pangalan ni *toot* *toot*,. Alang sagot… Sinigaw niya uli … Ala pa rin… Bigla siyang kinatok ng katotohanang wala na siya. Iniwan na siya sa mundong kaniyang pinaghirapan buuin. Wasak na ang kaniyang mundo. Ngayon iniisip niya ng pakamatay para matapos ang lahat. Lunurin ang sila sa alak para makalimutan ang problema. Gumanti sa ibang tao kung paano ang ginawa sa kaniya. Sobrang sakit "daw" ng nangyari sa kaniya.

Kainis no? Totoo ngang nakakabulag ang lintik na pagmamahal. Hindi nila nakikita ang mga nangyayari sa paligid nila. Talagang sarili lang ang umuusad pag nagmamahal. Payo ko lang sa iyo parey ( alam mo kung sino ka ), iba na ang buhay mo ngayon. Ano ngayon kung nawala siya? Gaya nga ng sabi ko sa isa ko pang pinayuhan, patayin mo ang emotion. Ipagpatuloy mo ang buhay mo. Marami pang iba dyan no at sana matuto kang pumili at makiramdam. Tandaan mo ang mga pagkakamali at huwag ka na umulit. Kasi next time, hindi na kita papayagang uminom, babasagin ko na lang ang bote ng alak sa bumbunan mo. Magtanda ka na tsong at enjoy life!

Gets mo? Gets ko! Gets nating lahat…

(Para sa isang post sa aking friendster bulletin board ng isang kaibigang naiiyak sa pag-alis ng boypren)

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Bakit ganun, takot tayong mga Pinoy umitim? Ano bang masama kung ang kulay mo ay maging kayumanggi? Bakit ba ayaw niyong tanggapin na likas sa atin ang hindi maging  kulay porselana?

Naiinis lang kasi ako sa mga taong pilit nagpaputi. Tipong subukan ang lahat ng bagay para lang lumiwanag ang kulay. Handang gumastos para lang sabihang maganda at titingalain ng lahat. Dahil siguro sa mga nakikita natin sa media at mga libro, pag sinabing maganda = maputi. Kulay daw ng kalinisan at kaselanan.

Iniisip ko lang kung lahat ng Pinoy naging puti. Paano na kaya ang sakahan natin? Sino na ang magtatanim gayong ayaw mong maarawan at magkulay lupa ang iyong balat? Sino ang manguha ng isda at papalaot sa dagat sa katanghaliang tapat para manguha ng kanilang ikabubuhay?

Hindi ko lang talaga lubos maisip bakit ang sama ng tingin nating Pilipino sa kulay kayumanggi. Di ko sinasabing masama ang puti pero sana tanggapin natin ang kulay ng ating lahi. Ay leche, hindi ko sinulat ito dahil negro ako o naiinis ako sa mga kumukutya sa kin, gusto ko lang ilabas kung ano ang aking masasabi sa isyung ito. Hay Pinoy, sobrang chinovela na yan…

(isinulat ko ang akdang ito dahil sa mga lintik na ale sa jeep na alang pinag-usapan kungdi magpaganda. istorbo sa tulog)

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Hmmm, just woke up from a well deserved sleep. Can’t imagine I need to do OT last night just to
cope up with the gazillion load of work(i’m just exagerating). I’m not sure if i have to file it as OT
because we are currently doing cost-cutting. Yep, Globe is cost-cutting (ayoko na humirit at baka mapulis pa ko).

For today, I have to finish our raket in UP with Hebs. It’s been long overdue since January and I’m already irritated with the non-stop follow-ups. I do this because I need to re-sharpen my skills (developer heart I say) and I feel i’m already rusty for programming. I admit it, in my job I don’t do what my passion really is. I’m stuck doing minor trouble-shooting and mini-scripts.Ala lang, I feel I really want to return to my developer’s world.

I’m a geek programmer. I love designing and implementing systems. I want to be updated in the latest trends in programming. But until today, it is suppressed. I envy those who design and took off with this skill. It won’t be long till I’ll be back in this field again. 5 months… 5 enduring months… Once again, I know, glorious days will come…

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Listen to me, if you are reading this entry please i beg you, follow my advise. You are stuck with what happen in your past, blaming yourself for its effects and eventually, feeling sorry for yourself. Everybody had a point when they made life changing mistakes and feel sorry about it. Countless tears already poured thinking it was the end of their lives. But hear this, GET UP!

Madapa ka, matuto kang bumangon. Alisin mo ang galit sa puso mo pati ang lungkot. Ibangon mo sarili mo. Alang maitutulong ang pag-iyak mo at paghingi ng dalamhati ng iba. Ikaw ang aayos ng buhay mo. Kumbaga sa isang barko, ikaw ang kapitan na magdadala papunta sa iyong patutunguhan. Di pa naman nawawala yung pangarap na yun eh. Abot mo pa. Oo, bumagsak ka pero di ibig sabihin nun tapos na ang lahat. Tumayo ka at i-tama ang maling nagawa.

Nakakapagod ibalik ang sarili sa dati. Oo, maraming kukutya sa iyo. Oo, maraming may masamang tingin sa nangyari sa iyo. Pero kebs mo, buhay mo yan hindi sa kanila. Ang huling decision nasa iyo. Hanapin mo ang lakas sa mga kutya nila at promise! babalik ka uli sa dati.

Pahirin mo na luha mo tsong, tutulungan kita. Pakinggan mo lang ang payo ko ha? Ngiti na, sabihin na nating malaki ang ngipin mo pero i-tawa mo na lang muna ang problema. Ayan, salamat naman at nakinig ka. Sunod, ilatag natin ang susunod mong mga hakbang. Maabot din natin yan, maniwala ka tsong! Ikaw pa, lakas mo sa kin!

Due to popular demands, ito ang aking latest list ng ym status. Di  talaga nila ma-take na nakakainis ang mga ito.

1) Nobody asks for your pinyot este opinion … isang babaeng nahatulan ng rape
2) Nagkaroon ako ng minor surgery… tule … Karlo habang naghahanap ng paraan sa SSS
3) Tama na… nakaramdam na ko ng malambot … 2 babaeng nag-hug sa LG
4) Pare, pag nagpainom ako bukas alam mo na ibig sabihin nun … isang lalaki kina mami
5) Kainin mo ang iyong sapatos, isama mo na ang medyas, isipin mo na lang ham yan… Ham nga!!! … isang sadistang officer

Sa kinasamaang palad, nakalimutan ko na yung iba, lalo na yung "pang-inis sa mga ym quotes ng iba".Pilit kong sinagot ang mga ym status ng ilan kong friends. Pag naalala ko, post ko agad dito.

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Curtain falls as another show ended
Lights were put out as I had my exit
With cheers and laughters I hear
signs that they enjoyed the show

Again I open up my dresser’s door
Looked in the mirror and wept
Covered my eyes and wiped my cheeks
Tears changed the smirk I see

My eyes now soaked with tears
Wiping, messing the white make-up
Throwing the bright red nose
Cursing the life I had for years

Now you see in this agony
Behind the laughs and cheers
A lonely man who never knows
what is happiness in his world

Feel my sadness i say to thee
For tomorrow again I need to hide
Behind this mask of full of sorrow
The man who has a dim tomorrow

Last night I attended the fete de la musique concert in Ortigas. It was festival of artists from the diffrent music genre, ranging from jazz to alternatives. Each genre has it’s own location (why the heck is the alternative station been move to the farthest galaxy?). The place was very very crowded (magkakapalitan na kayo ng mukha) as early as 6 pm.

It was so cool to see a lot of artists playing their own style of music. I even had a dose of reggae (it was the only station that wasn’t full by that time) and learned how to appreciate it. I also loved the alternative bands (Spongecola and Moonstar88, you rock!!!). Too bad, parokya ni Edgar and Rivermaya is not on on their playlist I was rooting for Rico Blanco’s moving vocals or groove to the First Day Funk by the PnE. Oh well, still it’s cool. 

Here are some of my comments/sharings during last night’s event:

1) Always check on your valuables - A guy in front of me suddenly stopped grooving when he realized that someone stole his mobile phone from his wallet. Ang dami talagang gagong oportunista pag may ganitong event.

2) If you’re a thief, don’t let others know - A mini rumble started in the middle of Papa Dom’s (Tropical Depression) number because a petty thief was caught stealing. He was brawled to the ground by some of the crowds. Damn! Tough luck for that guy.

3) Reggae music do rock - Well, I’m not a fan but I sure do appreciate this music after all. I’m impressed Kadangyan’s performance (truly ethnic but they are good!). Minus the hemp and all

4) Last night show are for the youth - I noticed that most of the crowd last night were young COed people. There was even a fan’s club from TUP or TIP with a big banner. They even have a punks not dead uniform (pucha, kung nandun kayo, tignan lang natin kung…)

5) You can enjoy the show without a bottle of beer - I decided not to drink anymore, and indeed it was still cool. A few casualties started to emerge (drunken girls cursing their damn boyfriends for leaving them, guys asking for a fight, etc.) If you drink, make sure you know you’re limits

6) Some Pinay celebrities are indeed a good sight - Cindy Kurleto; enough said….

7) If you can’t dig in the lyrics, just dance to the beat - I have this habit of listening and observing the lyrics of songs i hear. Due to the crowd, it seems that I need to just do what they are doing to get into the groove

The R&B/Hiphop station stinks - Sorry for this comment but the guest artists last night for that
genre’s sucked. They really bored us for like an hour or so. We just stayed their cause the place has aircon and comfortable. ooops, i forgot, one artist did get my attention, it was Syke. Pare, believe me, he’s cool.

Ok kwento ko si Syke. When his name was called, an old guy came to the stage.He looked like someone who has been working in Saudi for quite some time. He wears an old jacket and a Mega Sardine T-shirt. Oo pare, Mega Sardine shirt! Simple guy but he did 3 remarkable numbers. Now that’s talent for me man, No fancy clothes or whatever, just being himself.

9) Bring a towel and a huge fan (pamaypay) - Sobra init! Sa dami ng tao parang pugon! Leche!

10) When it’s free, expect a huge crowd to flock the town - The place was full already but people
were still coming in. Kulang na lang sarsa sardinas

Overall, it was a very cool event. Kudos to the organizers!

Have you ever talked about your dreams
Those thoughts that swirl in your sleep
Things that doesn’t make any sense
As if reality summons their will?

a poem inspired by the power of sleep

I always dreamed of being a vampire. The sinister being that haunts the evening by sucking out blood from their helpless victims. They were humans cursed through eternity with the thirst for blood.They are immortals and rule the night. They can change their shape into bats or mist as they
search for their prey.

But eventually they do have their own weakness. They are afraid of the holy cross for God condemn their powers given by the devil. They dispise the smell of garlic, it causes them a burning sensation. A stake stabbed in their heart will rid of their eternal madness. Lastly, the shine of a smiling sun
will pulverize them back to dust.

Pero syempre dahil ako ang nagsulat nito, may mga what if’s akong naisip tungkol sa kanila:

10 things "what if" dracula thingies:

1) What if vampires have rabbit two big front teeth instead of fangs?
2) What if vampires changed their diet and drink only margaritas and pinacoladas?(social!)
3) What if vampires wear pink polka-dot capes instead of dark ones?(imagine bats with pink polka-dot  wings)
4) What if dracula accidentally slept on a chest freezer? Will he become popsicle?
5) What if dracula is afraid of heights and everytimes he flies he got vertigo and air sickness?
6) What if dracula doesn’t change into a bat but into a hamster with cute big eyes and big noses?
7) What if dracula’s weakness is counting? Each time, before he bites he counts the number of bats
that swirls above his head?
What if dracula wants to have a tan complexion? will he go to a tanning machine?
9) What if dracula wears false teeth and he was about to bite someone?
10) Lastly, what if dracula is gay and he carries AIDS?

Noong nakaraang Biyernes at Sabado (Hunyo 10-11) ay nagkaroon ang team ko sa Globe ng isang  team building. Astig ang aming venue, "Punta Fuego" isang lugar sa batangas.

Bakit kamo astig? aba basahin mo na lang ang aking komentaryo ko sa baba:

Ang lugar - astig! Ang bahay namin dun ay sobrang laki. Literal na malaki sa taas ng isang bangin. Kumpleto sa gamit (lutuan, playground, kubyertos, tv, etc.), madaming activity spots (may lawn, playground, attic, penthouse) at very near sa beach. Malawak ang rooms as in MALAWAK plus may 2 floor na terrace kung saan tanaw na tanaw ang dagat. Sa mga nagbabalak bumili ng isang ito, parey mukhang kailangan mong tumaya sa lotto o kaya gawin ang "Anna Nicole Smith" strategy. P30M ang halaga ng isang bahay dito (feeling ko gusto ko himatayin). Nakakapanghinayang lang, kasi karamihan ng mga nakatira dito nung pumunta kami ay mga caretakers. Sobrang yaman ang mga may-ari tipong pumupunta lang sila dito pag summer. Wish ko lang sobrang yaman ko rin, ehehehhe

The beach - Kung titignan sa point of view ni hebs, panget (kasi alang gaanong chicks). Pero sa nature lovers, white grainy sand ang texture ng pampang. Parang umaapak ka sa crushed corals sa sobrang pino ng buhangin. Plus dito ko nakita ang sobrang lakas na alon. May video nga ako nung waves na humahampas sa may batuhan. Di pa naman ganun kalakas para makapag surfboard ka, pero it’s strong and big.

Downside lang, malabo ang tubig. Nagdala ko ng snorkling set pero ala ko makita sa ilalim. Sobrang cloudy marahil sa lakas ng alon at sa pino ng buhangin. Tapos medyo polluted na. Makikita mo ang tsinelas, mga pinagbalatan ng chichirya, logo ni datu puti, patay na pusa (joke), etc. At mabato! sobrang mabato! kung ala kang dalang aqua soles, malamang pwede ng pang-adobo ang paa mo sa tulis ng mga bato sa ilalim. Natural, masakit! By the way, may nakita pala kong korales na mukhang keps sa may dalampasigan. Thus, bininyagan namin sa pangalang "keps coral". Napagtrip-an namin, ito pa nga ang picture.

The activities - 2 lang ang highlight na natutunan ko sa aming teambuilding. Ito ang: mah-jong at "coupling shots".

Sa punta fuego ako natuto magmah-jong. Ang larong dati ay pinagtatawanan ko at hindi ko pinapansin sa paniniwalang sugarol lang at mga alang ngipin ang naglalaro, ngayon ako’y naadict. nalaman ko kung ano ang "Chow" at "Pong", "manalat" ng mga piyesa, mag-stack up ng tiles at mainis sa pagbuo ng tamang kombinasyon. Para lang pala siyang tong-its na mas mahal dahil tiles ang gamit mo. Nakakaadik pero syempre laro-laro lang. Ayoko gawing sugal.

Coupling shot - isa itong feature ng camera ko kung saan pwede mo pagsamahin ang 2 scenario sa isa. Kumbaga ang kalahati ang first scene mo, ang kabila ay ibang scenario. Salamat sa tripod at sa taong itago na lang natin sa pangalang shaggy, nagawa naming gumawa ng mga pictures kung saan kami ay parang may mga clones. Ano ang sikreto? pipili kami ng isang background sa bahay. Tapos kuhanan namin ng picture kung saan lahat kami ay naka-pose sa kalahati. Sa second shot,lilipat kami lahat sa kabilang bahagi at kukuha ng panibagong pose. Ang resulta: mga pictures na mukhang may kambal kami. Tignan niyo na lang ang mga sample ko sa baba:

All in all, astig ang trip namin sa punta fuego. Busog at sarap ang aming inabot kasama si Pepe Lopez!

Cool way to start the rainy season…

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